So before I express my point across I want to point out two things…This is not a blog to bash anyone but rather point out facts and accountability. Second, I will not be one to point out any bible verses for this matter. I realize that quoting them are good reference to get your point across however, these are words from my perspective. I’m not going to bring any more attention to situation I’ve dealt with within recent weeks however what I will do is bring attention to the lack of accountability of others. This goes more to the group of believers rather than the non-believers of Christ.

WHERE ARE YOU?!?!

To my “brothers in Christ?” I’ve called and you have not answered. I’m sure some who just read this statement just said “you should be saying that to God.” And while yes I have said that to God, can you understand the situation a person can be in. For someone to fall away from Church and live in the world and do things that they do and live by, can you imagine how hard it would be for someone to just go from a surrounding of nightlife, partying ways, soul ties with people who dragged you down, broken promises etc to all of a sudden submit themselves to God. That’s like someone who uses drugs and alcohol daily and all of a sudden they stop “just like that” the effect isn’t going to go away for quite some time. It’s going to be hard, it’s going to feel suffocating, at times you’re going to feel alone and abandon…They need support, they need healing, and they need surroundings of encouraging people. Do they need you to be there for them 24/7? No but rather check up on them, encourage them, lift them up. Send them a text here and there.

Do you pray for me?

Often times when I was committed to going to church, what I would see is the women of the church step up to the plate more than men did. Now till this day, that’s still very much like that…I often get checked up on mostly by women, they are ones to continue to send me messages with encouraging thoughts, they are the ones that like to meet up for coffee, they are the ones that like to take your mind away and enjoy what’s going on now. They are the ones that are willing to pray with you and for you. Such a shame…and then today’s day in age people get offended because a woman wants to run for president or become a pastor and gets judged for it because others say “don’t do a man’s job.” Well then freaking do your job and get it together. What’s the problem?  I can tell you what the problem is, we as men are afraid to reach out, we feel like we have to have this strong mindset and can’t break down. We feel like because we are the head we can’t open up, that’s false!!!!  I think once you come to a understanding on accountability or needing a friend you look at things differently and start to realize the areas you lack of and need healing from.

Reality Check

Most of the time church members who are about healing the sick, ministering or speaking into people lives they spend most of their times reaching the unbelievers, which is great. It’s what we are called to do. It’s what we position ourselves for…but we can’t forget about our brothers and sisters. When soldiers go to war, yes they fight a good fight but that doesn’t stop them from checking on their team and making sure they’re still standing tall, and when one falls they are there to pick them up and carrying them to safety. Someone once told me that before we can reach the nation, cross the street first. We are so caught up with sharing the great news on what Jesus showed us or what He allowed us to speak over someone…when was the last time someone shared a testimony in the church about saving a member of their own when they were going through a hard time? Now here’s the reality…Most people who you call non-believers have more heart to let someone in their lives and allow you to do what they do so that you can fit in and feel like apart of them. Why is that? Some may say it’s because they too are broken hearted and feel alone and need that company. Others say its’ because they don’t give a shit and let anyone in. It’s that that makes a person run the other direction from Church because when they need someone the most they run to those that are willing to invest time into them and distract them, yet they’re not realizing that they’re not running in the direction that is needed in their lives. Hurt people hurt people! I’ve experience that first hand, and once that hurt is exposed it’s not as easy to bounce back up. And for those that say “shut up and move on…” yes that is often what people need to hear, but do people really move on? Or do they still hurt? Have they really received their healing or do they fall back in the same pattern at some point in their lives?I do believe at some point, my testimony will be shared. I will be able to say that I overcame a lot in life, and that I really have moved on. It’s just sad that I have to do this alone…and no it’s not okay, but my HOPE will come from God, but right now…it’s a struggle to go from one lifestyle to start living another.